Monday, September 04, 2006
hey! been hanging out at nat lib for 12 hrs a day for almost e whole week! haha ok la it is SUPPOSED to be 12. but by e time i wake up its abt 8 left =x yes guangling small rocks she's e only one that can wake up :) haha well studying hasnt been very productiv im afraid.. hmm my rate of studying is super slow. as it goes im def. not gona be able to finish for prelims. aiyoyo n bryan fang has alr finished first round!! now y din i start earlier x(
hmm. ok ive been rly odd tday. thank u dear for being there even thou ive been odd abt another guy. reached lib at 850. hell, there were already lik 20 ppl queueing to go in!?!? hmm.. abt 10 i think.. he arrived.. no point puttin his name here since no one knows him. when i first got to see his face properly, i was like "oh crap. no. please, no.." uve changed so so much in 6 years u know. u arent the lil boy then anymore. im glad to see ure looking better. hmm. im amazed how i can still remember everything about u.. i watched the way those hands moved as u studied, wrote, picked things up, smsed. its all too familiar for my liking.. then u turned n caught my eye. haha as u told me then. e way u look at me will always give u away even if ur entire face is different. indeed after all these years it still is the same. the same eyes with tenderness turn my way.. it makes me odd. u were the first thing that really went wrong in my life u know. since i was lik 12. its stunnin how i remember everything so clearly. oh u hold e 18hr phone call record with me. in sec 3 u told me that u finally realised "the little girl would grow up" and "you should have waited". u should have known that "letting her go would mean never ever getting her back". hell im glad u realised that now my friend. then i wouldnt have cried for nothing. now today. im very sure ive grown older. and ive put it all almost behind me. it doesnt make me upset to see u anymore. it just tips my emotional balance to swinging extremes. im glad its behind us i guess. yes mayb we could catch up soon as u said. only didi will prob remove ur balls before that. haha. ok i feel lik im talkin to myself. am i now. hmm e slackin muz be gettin to me. ive realised that after all these years, i still miss you.
ok i shall stop rambling on abt.... in case u reading this, are wonderin. NO he's not one of my ex boyfriends.. nah it was nv love haha..
mel doesnt forget easily. neither does she totally forgive easily. and trust once lost. is really really hard to gain. my dearest didi. im sorry.
* i'll close my eyes and remember. 2:26 AM *
