Tuesday, May 23, 2006
i admire her strength n her courage. i noe how hard it is, considerin ive been wher she's been, felt what she's feeling. only i wasnt able to walk away strong. hell. wasnt even able to start walkin away to begin with -_-"
i was right. i cant possibly have 3 days of being happy. god is fair la. 2dae aft sch. wa rly e entire world was unavaliable. yings had zhu to disappear w. mat had choir b4 tuition. bern was sick. zhern was bz. k had wk. yanyan n rf had cip. didi had house moving. etc etc..goodness! where was the world!! ha was so miserable tt i had nothing to do! (going home doesnt count as somethin) tried tellin myself tt its ALRIGHT to spend some time alone n lik erm. go home? or stay in sch til 7 to wait for mat. ha then i could hv told bern im rly quite independent n not really a dependent worm. but noooo i started to cry n cry n was rly rly rlyyyy vvvvvv sad.. ok i feel lik cryin again. in e end called didi to cheer up a little. it wked i guess. haha plantation! in e end i was rescued!! by smints! my darling you ALWYS rescue me. ALWYS. w/o u. mel wud hv died seriously.. drowned in tears or sth.. haha retarded me la.
anyway im rly grateful dear tt u pangsehed ur essay to go satisfy my shoppaholic nature and urge! haha went to far east n shopped arnd. still hvn gotten over my rash impulsive highness of seeing HOTTIE dno what la, to buy that pink pumps. my dad almost fainted. my sis raised an eyebrow. everyone who saw e pic ?!?! tink di will disacknowledge this best fren too. goodness. i dun believe it myself! haha anyway shopped arnd w smint for nice random stuff! ahha she was lookin for wedges! n e only chio pair tt fit e bill was rly v chio n unique.. haha but abt $70. so erm. yea.. we figured u dun really need $70 wedges la huh.. hmm.. i bought this anklet for e beads on it. haha hv torn it apart n made a pair of earrings. haha quite worth it i gues! w beads on their own are lik around $0.50 but lik 27 on 1 anklet is lik $2.. cool my math rocks.. haha i made smint try this totally un-her top! n seriously my dear. look good. haha w a good figure ah usually anything will look good. HAI.. DIET NOT WORKING.. tried not snacking frm book shop la. but told myself ah since im so sad a little choc or icecream will cheer me up.. yeap now im sure its showing..
everytime we meet n hang out/shop tgt.. we alwys hv good good hearttoheart talks which i rly rly enjoy. heh glad u live so close to me dear! x) BAKE! hoho. shall get yings to teach us to make cheesecake.. so yummy :) heh oh ya my theory! see ah girls in non-sports cca somehow have less to worry abt. cos since they dont train = probably barely exercise. means they can maintain their current body shape n weight easily! whereas us sports ppl ah we only are like that cos we exercise n train lik shit freakin 3-4 times a weeK! hence! now tt training stops! shittttt we're so screwedD! fats are gonna pile up! n there's nth we can do to stop them!! oh goodness this is BAD. haha i m so dead.. i wana play bball la. but i juz had some nails stuck on. which are really lng n i dont tink i can play.. oh look one's jz fallen off ;) haha 9 more n i can play bbal.. stick ons are troublesome. next i shall either go acrylic or polish. but polish chips la x( n i wun b able to find any idiot willing to pei me 3-5 hrs to do acrylic again x( bah stupid best fren. oh cool bloggin's cheered me up.
//*shall i call? or will u.
* i'll close my eyes and remember. 3:18 AM *
