Wednesday, March 08, 2006
sigh by now, everyone shd hv known le ba.. jonathon left friday 030306.. jun rong 060306.. sigh guys ive cried buckets le.. i dont uds.. one aft another.. its scarin me.. both were friends ive had for many many years.. even thou we werent really close.. said hi to johnny a million times in dhs.. vjc.. n junrong.. we talked.. in tuition.. online.. gossiped abt hot tuition guys n girls.. this is. so sudden.. saw johnny last at common test hall.. he looked.. smart.. he's darn smart.. talented.. and good-lookin to many.. why.. i rly dun uds.. junrong's shy at first.. so shy.. but so funny and corny when he opens up.. i rly cant imagine the boy i see every sunday.. juz.. gone forever n ever.. n u'll nv wave to me at bishan again cos?. i juz wun see u there anymore :'( he seemed totally fine on sunday.. he talked.. laughed.. bully me.. arranged to go tuition tgt next week n all.. everything was e same as it alwys was.. im rly scared now.. really really.. its lik one aft another.. what if? *touch wood* sigh. im juz scared.. really scared.. i duwan anything to happen to anyone le.. rly.. even if we dun get along or we dont say hi or wad. juz.. bah ive learnt tt even ppl u dno/ dno u.. wil b rly sad.. will cry over u.. will miss u in some way or another.. this is juz. normal ppl.. what abt ur family.. relatives.. close frenz.. gf.. bah.. painn.. pain lik free lidat.. bah i dont feel lik bloggin le. e super sadness's gone.. thanks didi.. u alr are half a fren.. i feel different now.. lookin at everyone waklin past.. weird thoughts run thru my head.. ha ah gong's worried i'll sink into depression. dun worry ah gong... ur graanddotter will b fine.. as rou rou said ppl who keep things bottled easier to booM.. mel will most def b fine then :) i love my frenz who've lent shoulders/given tissue/lent ears/hugged me/kissed me.. i rly appreciate e love.. thanks.. i'll be better le.. so long as someone doesnt bully me x( i love my frenz.. bah everyone one of u reading this. eh even it ure not my fren. eh mayb even if u hate me. wait if u hate me u wun b readin this. but bah. i love everyone.. dont go anywher plz.
* i'll close my eyes and remember. 1:40 AM *
