Thursday, March 23, 2006
hey. yest was a super super super unstable day. i woke up knowin shit this is a bad day. and indeeed it was..tink i prob scared e shit outta bern.. thou i din get as crazy as my rly rly bad days when even didi was rly scared.. my days hv been empty.. classes.. juz absorb, or dont absorb im not sure even.. then aft sch. im so scared of hvin nothin to do. so i hardly wil get to see didi since its her right to demand he spends time w her now. ah fuck. hell.. bad many many big cries yesterday. some rly rly long long ones.. but there were some tt lasted juz a minute or so.. was rly bad but aft a min it was over. n e bad feeling juz went away. 2dae's been scary.. all cos of jason la! last nite conned me into seein this picture tt was so so scary it made me cry lik hell then i cudnt slp n until now whenever i get to a black screen im so scared n paranoid.. speakin o paranoid didi says im v paranoid. darn. ha he slept for lik 20hrs+ la.. so i was worried tt sometime had happened ma.. darn its a concerned best fren la not paranoid lA! x(! bahh.. oh ______'s cute =D haha okie random.. but his gf's even cuter! hoho.. hmm someone went for netball trials yesterday.. i dreamt tt i met her in competition.. she played wing attack. i played the defender.. wing defence.. well. i'll leave it to ur imagination.. yes its wrong n evil to think evil thoughts n dream sadistic dreams and be selfish n wan wads not mine. screw e good ppl. im evil n im ugly BAH. btw im so so into nunhood le.. REALLY. all u 19 ppl! be prepared to be proven wrong.. ha.. cos i dont wana cry again.. i dont wana hurt lik crap. dont wana cant eat cant slp cant function. duwana be this wreck i am now..
special mention of BERNY BABY/FRANK haha i spend lik 12 hrs straight w her yesterday.. she prob almost died i know. haha sorry my dear.. but i juz wana say thanks la. w/o u... haha. i dont wana imagine wad wud hv happened to me yesterdayy.. yea so thanks okie.. :) i'll buy more drink for u! ha *look at the skyy!
oh ya n tele. be happy u pig. mel's here.. anything run over come find me hor. =D
* i'll close my eyes and remember. 2:50 AM *
