Thursday, February 02, 2006
hi this is gona b a really sucky entry not worth readin at all so plz dun read unless eh ure really bored.. mel's sad tday...
hey.. ive had one of e worsts days ever.. and def. one of e worsts nights.. i duwan anymore lidat le.. really dying.. vv miserable.. i promise i'll b good n obediant le la :'( i know mel is usually not good.. not guai.. boo.. tjm's got his saint back congrats man! when's my saint comin back.. stupid..tday ive redefind "like free lidat" w my tears.. pillowcase/bolster can testify.. mm i shall not take stuff for granted le.. u wun appreciate holdin e hand till its gone n doesnt wana hold back :'( n u wun realise how impt a dino/worm needs her wormstand/dino-dno-wad until its gone.. suddenly tday i realised this dino cant lean on/put her head e netballers/gf shoulders all e time ma.. *sniff* i wan my "permenant" wormstand back.. felt so lost lik nth for me to lean on le.. (i noe its nth much but this is mel).. nvm e mint flavour in e candy empire jac i wan my strawberry.. e netballers were really nice n tolerant tday n i muz say a bigbig thank u to them.. was realy hard gettin thru training esp i dno y.. it sucked bad baddd.. was really sad tried hard not to cry at everyday break but failed miserably.. i wan my saint back.. been talkin to myself alot tday n e past few days.. think e aunty on e bus thot i was siao.. talk to myself n cry to myself.. last night i cried til 4 n everyone was aslp.. really EVERYONE.. but then again who e hell wud b awake at 4 la.. true.. mel's quite dumb sometimes hor.. i dun lik MI.. really really dun.. bet yi din then too.. e girls there really so nice ma.. really that whatever ma.. BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh.. oh my mummy juz gave me 4 more angbaos.. im stil unhappy.. nvm at least i have a promised v'day er meeting.. shucks it sounds shitty.. oops ive spent e entire entry whiningg le.. ok i shall go put a note in e front.. *inserts e first line* actually i realised aft puttin e 1st line i no need put this lines le hor but nvm la.. ok what m i saying.. im talkin nonsense to prevent e watertap from being turned on.. i have this feeling if bryon met me 2dae my watertap status will upgrade to er.. i dno gotta ask him.. smart ppl more creativity.. bah.. i dun think he's calling after all :'(.. mel shdnt wait i know but he said it may wk out.. he sounded totally not hopeful but its a mayb :'( STUPID go away.. im a strong dino.. but even e strongest dino is a dino in e end ma.. *tap on*
dino : a person who cant be alone.. needs ppl to be w her.. sth lidat.. stil haven gotten it properly frm tx.. haha apparently tt girl's a dino.. not sth i wud have imagined man lookin at her..
i shall try to slp early 2dae.. thinking abt vday mayb.. i hope i have a un-lonely one.. i shall pray to someone or 2 that mayb i wun b lonely.. i shd date a girl.. or buy a pet dog.. basically mel's gettin old n shdnt cry right.. yea i know i said i'll try wad but she's still really sad n lookin at stuff they've done tgt or places they've gone to tgt will stil make her cry.. mayb she can put didi in a box then it'll be okay.. i need a really long box then.. oh bother.. *sobs*
oh ya n my gf.. woman.. polly quack dear thanks.. uve been er whats tt word.. aiya u noe la *muack* i loveee u.. alot! n hope tadpole-guy looks aft my babies well.. i miss them.. lonely..
* i'll close my eyes and remember. 1:10 AM *
